Sunday

The Struggle

She was sitting just to the right of him.  His mind wandered to the last time he had been with a woman.  He could remember the details, but he couldn’t remember how long it had been.  Six months, a year, even though he couldn’t say, it felt like a lifetime ago. 
The others in the group were keeping themselves occupied.  All of them milling around before the day turned to night.  Dinner would be made soon and they would all settle down.  It was the last night before they returned to Kendell Keep.  The time was right.
Her name was Acatia.  She was one of the girls that they had saved.  They found her naked in the baths of the caves.   Her beauty and lack of clothing made it clear that she was there for the pleasure of Iuz’s priests.  And now she was sitting there next to him.  The only thing she was wearing was the cloak that he had given her.  She didn’t flinch as he began to cast a spell. 
He kept his voice low, as to keep the others from hearing.  They didn’t.  His spell complete, he coughed, then turned to her and said, “Come with me, I have something for you.”
She stared into his eyes and with a smile replied, “of course”.
As soon as he knew she was unable to refuse, he gently led her further from the fire.  Her cloak swung open as she walked.  Slowly looking down at her exposed body, she moved her hand to the edge of the cloak.  His hand went to her chin.  Lifting her head, so that her eyes met his, he paused.  He looked down to her hand, her eyes followed his.  He waved her hand away, with just a slight movement of his fingers.  Her cloak hanging open, her face wearing a shroud of contentment, she followed him behind a mound, to a spot the others could not see. 
            From a distance, Merric caught the two out of the corner of his eye.  It looked strange to him.  Where were they going?  What was this old man going to do with this young female?  Then he saw her cloak fall open.  He saw Thaer wave her hand away.  He knew that she wasn’t of her own mind.  He dropped the vambrace that he had been polishing and hurried to them. 
            The moment they walked behind a large mound where the others couldn’t see, his mind turned dark.  He was going to take her.  Fuck her hard, like she hadn’t had before.  She was under his spell.  He would be able to push her past her normal limits.  He was going to take out his anger on her.  He planned to push her hard to the limits of the spell.  If it didn’t break on its own, he would break the charm and force her to take it.  She deserved it.  She had been held in those caves, unbound.  She must have wanted it. 
            “Thaer,” Merric said loudly, mustering up his confidence.
            Thaer let out a sigh. His eyes rolled and he turned his attention away from his prize.  “Shoo” Waving his hand and coughing, “go back the campfire little boy”.
            Thaer could tell that it was not worth it.  The weeks of traveling had taught him that this boy would not let this go.  Thaer felt fatigued and another wave of nausea consumed him.  He mind quickly assessed the possible outcomes of this situation.  It was not worth the effort that it would take.
            Merric went on about doing the right thing, his god, and whatever else.  Thaer stopped listening and was walking away.  Before he disappeared behind the other side of the mound, he turned back and said, “Acatia, that’s Merric.  Let him do whatever he wants to you.”  With that he smiled and turned back to the fire.
            Merric stood there frozen.  He looked down at her naked body, then to her face.  She stared back at him, waiting, willing.
            “Thaer!”  He yelled as he snapped out of it.  He told Acatia to cover up and come back to the fire. 
            Thaer broke the spell on Merric’s insistence, sat by the fire, and helped prepare the food.  He acted as if nothing happened.

While they ate, Acatia sat next to Thaer.  She started to open up about her experiences in the caves, but soon caught herself, thinking that he couldn’t understand.  Hearing her raw feelings touched something in him.  Feeling a connection with her he told her of his recent past.  They spoke quietly.  They talked until almost all of the others had retired for the night.  Merric was still up.
Acatia walked over to him and thanked him for his actions earlier.  Then she told him that she no longer needed saving.  She walked back to Thaer and gently took him by the arm and led him away.

Spent, croaking with exhaustion, he crashed to the ground and rolled over. He laid his head back and slowed his breathing.  Acatia lay beside him.  Looking up into the stars, he thought of the darkness inside him.  It had grown so powerful.  The seed had taken root and the seed had not been sowed by him.  He thought about how it had been showing itself.  He thought about how he felt.  The sickness within his body and the evil that he had endured had affected him more than he wanted to admit.
He thought of Merric.  The boy’s actions were noble, in his own eyes.  He was following his beliefs.  Thaer had no issues with using his new found magic to get what he wanted.  He had always used the minds of the week to get his ways.  But, this anger was not his. 
“Thank you, Merric” was his thought.  Knowing that Merric wouldn’t understand, but Merric had stopped him from being something he didn’t want to be.